Saturday, June 28, 2014

One year ago today...

One year ago today, I heard a still small voice whisper that this is the day we will find our daughter. That evening, my husband called me over to look at a beautiful child on an advocacy website and we both fell in love.

*Post edited - Because Z has refused adoption, I have removed her pictures to protect her privacy.

It has been a whirlwind year, filled with ups and downs. The first half of the adoption process went really quickly. We thought for sure we'd be traveling within a year of finding our girl. The second half of the adoption process has gone much more slowly. We've evidenced several miracles, including God providing over $11,000 through generous friends and family, which allowed us to complete our adoption fund and proceed with the necessary approvals.

I already think of Zhi Zhi as our daughter, even though she won't officially be ours until the court finalizes our adoption. I can't wait to become her mama, to show her the love of a family, and to introduce her to our loving God.

Yesterday our agency contacted us and asked if we wanted to delay the adoption. We found out that Zhi Zhi wavers between being afraid of the huge change coming her way and wanting to have a family. The judge in Taiwan will ask her social worker how Zhi Zhi feels about the adoption. We need her to want to be adopted. Since day one, we have been praying that God will soften her heart so that she will want to be adopted, that she will allow us to love her, and that someday she will love us in return.

We stepped out in faith yesterday, believing that God will finish preparing her heart, and instructed our agency to continue with the adoption process. Once we receive our preapproval letter from AIT, our case will be submitted to court. Please pray for Zhi Zhi, that she will be eager to be adopted by the time the judge asks. We have faith that God will continue to bless us as we seek to make Zhi Zhi our daughter.

5 comments:

Julie Fukuda said...

To step bravely into the unknown is a big move for an adult. Hoe much harder for a youngster. I will put you al on my prayer list.

Jason and Michelle said...

I will pray for her heart to be opened, and to WANT to be part of a family.

Ann HisGraceToMe said...

Praying for Zhi Zhi (and you too!)

Cassandra said...

Thank you so much, Ann! It is much appreciated! :)

Carrie said...

Praying.